You love your job and can’t imagine doing anything else. But the job description of a first responder is unique because you are exposured to some serious shit. Sometimes, your on-duty memories resolve after a few days or weeks. Others seem to stick around and haunt you.
When this happens, symptoms of PTSD can creep in slowly. You could be drinking more to escape or to help you get some much-needed sleep. You may be fighting more with your loved ones and even feel more distant. Downtime sucks so you’re picking up extra shifts to try and occupy your mind. You’re worn out, pissed off, and can’t focus.